Bleeding Heart

I heard what your lips were saying 

But your eyes spoke louder

Screaming eyes 

Shouting at the top of their lungs

Forcing me to see

Beyond the words

The samples 

The stories

It was your eyes that told the truth 

The pain within was deeper than mere flesh

For these stabs 

Had dug so deep that your heart was bleeding

Spilling out of your eyes like rain drops

I'm listening 

I can hear you 

Never have you been this vulnerable 

Letting me in and undressing your love

Removing guards only for a moment 

I could see you

The person hiding behind the love for others

The care of tending to others needs 

I saw your bleeding heart exposed 

How ignorant I must have been 

To not see all of this before 

But how was I supposed to know

Never did you let me this close

And as soon as I took notice 

The walls were rebuilt

Thicker than street pavement 

Placed behind barbed wire

And a crooked smile...

If only you'd lend me your eyes again 

And we could work on your smile again 

Not the one on your face 

But the one in your heart 

Reassemble the broken pieces 

And restore you from the ruins...

If only...

If only...

I could see you again 

The Madness

A room of silence
Nothing but a sheet to keep warm
Cradling one another
Trying to make good out of something so wrong
How long can this go on
Help isn't far away
Your pride keeps your lips frozen
Everyone has disowned you
But her
She stayed by you
But how could you
How could you do this to her
You're so wounded that you can not see
Have you forgotten that you live within her
She is your home?
Once you betrayed her trust
Even you
Became lost in your own eyes
Staring back at a shell of yourself
Lost in sleepless nights & drenched in shame
Hiding scars & trying to laugh to hide your pain
Dying inside
Scraping out old wounds to draw attention away from fresh bruises
You mutilated yourself with one wrong move
And a plethora of misused words
Lies to cover lies
Throwing back spirits to hide your dismay
Laughing on cue as if you had everyone fooled
Yet it showed
Your secrets were transparent
Dangling on you like a tail
You're trying to hide something you've attached to your spine
The monster you created
Was riding you like the fool you are

Step Out

You are not who you claim to be
You're afraid if they see you
They won't love you
Uncertain & worried about everything
Even your bones grow weary
Of your heavy mind
Overcome with so much hurt
When will you release what's holding you captive?
You want to unleash what's happened
What has you this way
But you think there eyes will change
Their adornment will fade
Once you step onto the platform
Don't be afraid
Undress yourself & remove the intangible bags you carry
The ones that keep your shoulders feeling so heavy
Weighed down by the stress of your worst enemy
Face yourself