The Kill

I should have stopped when I felt myself losing my mind
I just couldn’t let go
You were the poison I clung to
I don’t blame you…
I blame myself & you were my lowest low
I had to save myself
I was drowning in my own tears
Tried to make sense of your fickle ways
Nothing was ever consistent
Every move was questionable
Even the look in your eyes sent me wondering…
Where could your heart be?
I clung to you telling myself
I was saving you
You were taking me lower
Everyone could see it but me
I kept fighting to survive
I wanted more for us
I labored for our love
Our love was supposed to set us free
Keep us afloat
You took all that you could take
And I couldn’t help but keep giving
I knew no other default
You were mine, that’s all I knew…
I thought I was saving you…while you were killing me