The Secret (circa 2008)

Empty space
Blank page
Not a doubt in my mind that
I still have feelings for you
My lies camoflouge my truths
And I speak them to you
Hoping that you'd follow
Untangle my knots
And straighten lines
Yet you're too blind to see
And I'm too stubborn to take that risk of vulnerability
Something about not knowing if mutuality exists
Puts my heart into remission
And I fill that space in which I've held you close for so long...
With errands to run
Books to read...
And an endless cycle of distancing my feelings from my thought process
Until I cannot feel at all
That is...
Until your voice resounds
I see your smile
Feel the warmth of your skin...
Blood begins to flow...

I Want You (Can I Have You?)

I have everything to say
And nothing to say all at once
My lips are moving
Forming subjects that have no significance...
Yet on I speak while my mind drifts
If only I could say what's really on my mind...
These thoughts and feelings are bursting to come out
I just can't seem to find peace in their release.

The Promise (circa 2008)

You don't have to ask
You can have...
Take...
What you please
As long as you desire me for me...
I'll be an open book for you and only you
Yes I'm making an effort to act brand new
Embrace me baby
The loving in need is long over due...
I'm willing to change and grow with you
As long as you understand to love me takes time...
Be patient with me and we can learn how to please one another effectively in ways that no skeleton can emulate
I'll keep it interesting...introduce new things that we can share with one another