Then You Lost Your Love...

Hair full
Body blessed
Milky skin
Melodious voice
You're my weakness
I dare not speak of this
Admit it to you
For what reason?
As long as I look lovingly back at you
My devotion should be seen in my glare
You can't see it in me?
Is that what you said?
You can't feel my love, is that what you cried?
Deep sigh
I go back into my mind as you speak
Retrace my words like steps
See where I went wrong
What I could have change
So many mistakes
Many I can name, that haven't been mentioned
I shame myself, am ashamed of myself
But why? Why do I run from you, my only truth?
The love I prayed for, longed for, that stayed dancing in my mind
Every time I thought of you in your absence
It was an obsession, wondering how your days went and if you were okay
Knowing inside that we'd cross paths fully, again
Not knowing what would accompany our visitation but I knew it would be long & that we'd reconnect like we were
The only difference I'd foreseen was the offering of longevity
I made the mistake of sharing my desires too soon
They weighed heavier than my actions & caused you to mentally & emotionally retreat
I lost my love...
Then I hear Badu in my background...
"then you lost your love... It's too late... I'm sorry, I love you..."
It resounds "it's too late"